ok i think i can tell la, it cant be kept for long. so this is it. LJL is fucking leaving for china, FOR GOOD. just like that! :(

she's been like a mother to us. im going to miss her like crazy. she's leaving on the 25 thats this freaking tuesday and we most probably wont be able to send her off cos she's leaving so early in the morning though i dont mind going so early to the aiport before school but mum probably wont allow. that makes AAG the last competition with her and she thats only the first im trng under her! im sorry but i really dont like(im abstaining from using a stronger word) philip. we're talking to her on msn now and i really cant stop but think about AAG. my eyes are watering non stop i dont know how to stop it. im trying to open the msn convo window as less frequent as possible. it just hurts so much.

im going to miss all her trngs. im going to miss her motherly self. the team is going to be so empty without her. i dont even feel like going for trng anymore. she was probably one of the most impt reasons why i still drag myself to trng session after session before aag even though its fucking tiring. im going to miss her nightly massage in japan i feel so guilty for not massaging for her enough.

(mother's scolding i need to go off, might continue another day)
whatever it is, Long Jiao Lian we all love you alot and we'll miss you even more.
<3