the mere mentioning of the word long reminds me of LJL, how sad is that :'(

i need to get over this mess i need to study for promos. i cant wait for og outing next friday, needa talkkkkk!

i just wanna be a small kid,
never wanting to grow up.

need. to. stop. vulgarities!

i dont like the fact that ever since i came to ac, i've become much more vulgar :( but i've not regretted coming to this college :)

things havent been going very well since AAG. absolutely no mood to study cos there's too much to worry about and too much distractions(like this!). which spells trouble because promos is in 6 weeks and i havent started ://///////////// and knowing that i failed math isnt helping at all :(

my mum just handed me a piece of print out which contains part of my email to LJL. i have no idea who/what/how it was printed i wasnt even using the com and the email was sent few days back and i didnt press print or whatever i dont even know how to print from the email screen D: freaky much? its the 7th month :/ no, im too superstitious.

ohoh, liverpool's loss brought much joy to my day :D i cant wait to see marcia on sunday! and i want ion swenson's ice cream buffet! iwant iwant iwant! i'll suggest it for og outing :D

my new short term goal:
sam is going to start and finish her econs package tmr. grrrrr.

that's it, she's gone.

and it hurts.

:(

seriously, i still dont understand why any parent or swimmer would complain about long. maybe they havent trained under her before. cos if you ask those who have, no one would deny she's a good and motherly coach. i've hated figures sessions all along but that has changed since long took over. i've always enjoyed her sessions. im going to miss all the times when she randomly takes out her camera and start snapping away. and without long, would debbie have been able to win audrey? yes, hou was the one who choreographed the routine but it was she who trained her for AAG. whereas audrey had the guidance of the head coach but still lost to debbie. and debbie hadnt managed to achieved this feat of beating aud in anything since day one until that day. (sorry audrey, no hard feelings) isnt that a good enough result for you? i still cant get over the fact that she's going to leave. arranging for farewell party have been quite difficult and we most probably wont be able to send her off on tuesday. have you ever wondered why she's been trying to avoid you? i think you really need to do some soul-searching. stop making yourself sound like a hero cos you arent. do you know how horrible it is a feeling to know that the day we touched down from japan was the last we would ever see of her? worst still, we didnt even say goodbye.

p.s. i really dk how you managed to get into a uni, you cant even spell.

ok i've thought about it. couldnt stop crying just now but i have chem spa tmr i need to compose myself. havent had the mood to study ever since i returned from japan. the news today just dug another big empty hole on top of what i alr had inside me, its painful.

LJL has let me read the email, im sorry i cant disclose much from it but i feel super uneasy reading the email. philip praises himself nonstop i feel injustice for long. at least i think now i can better understand where long is coming from and maybe she's right. she'll probably feel happier back in china, not tied down by her boss here in singapore. so i really wish her all the best but we're really going to miss you. considering you probably wont be a synchro coach anytime soon, we wont be able to see you in competitions. maybe the next time we go for competition and meet the hk team, we'll ask the coach to intro you to some other country's clubs just so we can meet :)

these are going to be few of my favourite photos ever.



you've really been an awesome coach, there's nothing more i can say <3

ok i think i can tell la, it cant be kept for long. so this is it. LJL is fucking leaving for china, FOR GOOD. just like that! :(

she's been like a mother to us. im going to miss her like crazy. she's leaving on the 25 thats this freaking tuesday and we most probably wont be able to send her off cos she's leaving so early in the morning though i dont mind going so early to the aiport before school but mum probably wont allow. that makes AAG the last competition with her and she thats only the first im trng under her! im sorry but i really dont like(im abstaining from using a stronger word) philip. we're talking to her on msn now and i really cant stop but think about AAG. my eyes are watering non stop i dont know how to stop it. im trying to open the msn convo window as less frequent as possible. it just hurts so much.

im going to miss all her trngs. im going to miss her motherly self. the team is going to be so empty without her. i dont even feel like going for trng anymore. she was probably one of the most impt reasons why i still drag myself to trng session after session before aag even though its fucking tiring. im going to miss her nightly massage in japan i feel so guilty for not massaging for her enough.

(mother's scolding i need to go off, might continue another day)
whatever it is, Long Jiao Lian we all love you alot and we'll miss you even more.
<3

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO this cant be happening :( now there's yet another reason for me to cry whenever i think about AAG. please dont ask me about it im not supposed to say. at least not yet. please let it not be true :(

why is everything and everyone so screwed up. AAG gathering is now cancelled :O :((((( earlier in the year JO one was cancelled too. why oh why :( and i want to go for trng but i have so much to catch up on i dont feel like studying anymore.

home doesnt feel like home. i missed the times in japan in the hotel before national day where we would just sit around and start singing singapore songs together and just go on and on and on. the bond that we shared, i hope it lasts. everyone's all split up now we should have combined trngs every now and then la. everyone's crumbling under this nostalgia :(

stacey: please please please take care of yourself and cherish yourself. there's alot of people out here who actually care for you. let go of the past, i know its hard, but you've got to come to terms with it someday. you still have a very long way to go in synchro and studies and of course in life! think of all the friends you've made, treasure them and enjoy every minute of your life. when things get hard and you dont feel too good, turn to God, He'll always help you. so please take care and we all love you <3>
to everyone else: really, just cherish everyone around you and enjoy their company and all. life is just too short for regrets seriously. life is never easy, we all know.

my life is already full of regret and that feeling really sucks.

AAG '09 leaves one of the worst feeling of nostalgia ever :(

there goes my first and last AAG. i feel as if everything has been taken for granted. time really really flies. people come and go, i miss everyone :( its really been an awesome journey, from trainings to competition itself to disneyland and sea after that, i enjoyed every bit. it has been so eventful, tohse earthquake scares, the 20th floor, staying up with the hk ppl and so much more. God has amazingly put this team singapore together, we've went through so much together. im glad we all made it despite the hell lot of injuries and emo moments. some of us didnt do as well as we wanted to but i just want to congratulate nat debbie establelle and the under 12 team for doing so well, yall deserved your medals :) to the 13-15 team, happy that yall met your target haha. now that its all over, the feeling of emptiness is so overwhelming.

yumiko has left for italy to train them for the olympics. she is going to be very much missed. im going to miss all her mispronounciantions (fibe vung vung which meant 511, preparate needs to be erased from my dictionary and all her funny funny words) she's been a wonderful coach, i've learnt alot from her and there's still so much more she can offer im sure. whatever it is, she's no longer here with us. i wish her all thee best in italy.

the day has been passing so quickly its too fast! i miss the AAG alot alot alot alot alot :( im going to trial for JO next year. i really need to get over this nostalgia :( i'll cry just looking at some photos. i love the team yall were awesome <3

why is the team so screwed up >:/

GOODBYE SINGAPORE

thanks ping!

im half way packing theres so much to pack i dont even know what to pack D: so im here to blog :)

first thing SJL told me when she saw me today after so long was that im fat. nice shit im going to lose weight!

im NOT going to school tommmmmmmmmm, no shitty leadership trng module. awesomeness! instead, i'll be recuperating from my slight flu by shopping for last minute stuff with my sister! heh. i dont like to pack :( esp when my mum puts every damn thing into a ziplock bag its so annoying my whole luggage is full of ziplocks :(

goodbye friends, today's the last day of school before flying off, i'll bring back your (1SA8) fav chocolates :D

i can feel it! im going to miss AAG so much! :(

oh and i told sb smth which i think i shouldnt have today :/ sorry! but either way, you'll be kept thinking about it so no diff (i think). its ok time will tell :)

omggg i hope they have sports coverage in japan i want my football! if not i'll miss the opening match! D:

ok mum's nagging. bye

HELLOOOO!!! i haven't used blogger in a long time. and sam asked me to post for her so i'm posting for her :D:D she hasn't packed yet and got no time to blog. and cuz i'm so bored i'm doing this :D we're leaving for japan in 2 days! and i'm gonna make it fun like JO :D but sadly we have to surrender our laptops :( sam you owe me! and and and.. you're gonna go crazy with me there. but i have to tutor audly :( that means study. but i can't even remember how to do primary maths :/ i shall go watch my show now. so i'll help you blog somemore next time. just ask me :D

and no more lord voldemort/heartfelt is probably my greatest and hardest accomplishment so far :)